There really is nothing worse than a few days of total self absorption when you are feeling physically miserable. Add a dash of insomnia and the pits of hell seem tame.
Okay, maybe I haven't had it that bad but at times I felt like wailing and gnashing my teeth. This round of chemo is a bit more ummmm pronounced than last time. A bit more nausea, a bit more achy body, alot more metallic taste in my mouth. YUCK! Oops and the PMS type mood swings. Good Lord I was crying over a comic. (My father, who is an old softie, did say the comic had a "good story line" and did make him a bit misty.)
I may have over extended myself by going to the Cancer Survivors Game last Saturday. It was so hot and alot of people breathing in and out. I did end up with a slight fever but all seems well now. It is almost like a switch off and on. Yesterday in the morning I was draping myself over every piece of furniture but by the end of the day I had actually finished a few things I had attempted. Yay!
Today I'm going for a follow-up with my surgeon and then make an attempt at going to work. Woohoo. If only I didn't have to sit upright at work I'd probably do much better. It's the upright that gets me.
Oh and the concentration thing. I was all set to show off some goodies I got from Susan but when I put the disc I thought I had saved the pictures to I found only one picture. And that one was of my niece before her prom with my dad. That was a bit ago......
Maybe later I will make another attempt at getting the pictures off my dad's computer. I'm not promising anything. I have to make it to work and back first.......
4 comments:
Oh, I just want to cry with you.
I know nothing I say can make it better, but I'm thinking about you a lot lately.
You need to realize that it is okay to feel lie shit once in awhile You are, after all, going through chemo. I drape myself all over the furniture and cry over podcasts and I am NOT going through chemo.
Look for another box soon. Thinking of you!
Sus
I just re-read my comment and it sounded snarky to me.. but then again I am hormonal and panicky.
It sucks that you feel like crap... what I meant to say was... give yourself permission to just rest and lay around and be cranky and cry. I will stop commenting now...lol
thank you girls - I do appreciate you - you know that right?????
PS Susan - ummm from one queen of snark to another I lknow you can be much much more snarky!!!!! If you were really meaning to be snarky I woulda known it...... :)
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